I seem to have stabilized in a decent place. Sadly it’s not quite where it was when my Don’t Worry Be Happy pills first started to take effect. I have hopes of getting back there, but I have to say I am in a pretty good place. I am absolutely better than I was before I started the Meds. We haven’t been working in my ADD yet, but I do seem to be more focused. I have been able to find time to work on my children’s series of poems/stories not to mention my regular blog posts. I don’t think I have ever written this much and often in my life. I have been able to keep up with some pretty big projects at work. I had a couple of really bad days including one I couldn’t even go in, but overall I am have been doing very well. I have a painful commute, and when I say painful I mean it literally. Its 45 minutes to an hour in and an hour to hour 15 minutes home, on average. A lot of that is stop and go claustrophobia enduing frustration where I litarly experience physical pain. Either a stress headache or pain in my chest or arm. I realize I have’t felt that since the meds. I think I mentioned this before but I also haven’t had a migraine. This is the longest period of time I have gone without a migraine in 9 years.
My psychiatrist and I have done some therapy but its mostly medication management. Tomorrow I am stating to see a social worker. Hopefully we will click since she is super close by and takes my insurance. She said on the phone she does Behavioral Cognitive Therapy, I hope so. Call me crazy but I like my medical treatment to be evidence based. I have a background in psychology and spent the last 8 1/2 years working for a healthcare consulting company, so I don’t feel like an uninformed consumers. If she doesn’t work out, I do have a couple other names.
I think over the last day or 2 the medicines have plateaued. Again I am better than I was before therapy, but not to the place I had gotten, so I’m not sure if my doctor will want to tinker a bit more, or see how the therapy goes. I am hoping for tinkering. I never really used to believe in better living though chemistry, but as I have watch these meds and the Lunesta chance my life for the better, I have come around.
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