Ok I am back from my trip. Melissa is showering the boys so I am doing a quick post, before she has to run out and I put the kids to bed. I don’t talk about my job on here, but I have two types of trips I typically go on. One is fine usually involves me training people, which I love, the other is more of the life sucking variety. Without going into any details this was a suck the life out of you kind of trip. But if you read my last post you know I had no anxiety about the trip. And I didn’t even have any about the return. It was actually pretty funny, I was waiting at the gate under a TV, trying to write an Egret story and CNN is doing a story on just how bad TSA sucks, and how much they miss. Honestly it didn’t even faze me. So I am definitely seeing and overall lowering of my anxiety levels. Even though it was a the soul sucking variety trip, I never felt anxious about anything. So I am counting that as a win. Something is still not right though. I am depressed. Again I am feeling worlds better than I was, but I seemed to have plateaued at a still relatively depressed state. Nothing that my best fake it till you make it smile can’t hide. But I haven’t found the balance.
Sadly I did not keep my promise to Josh and finish an Egret story. It was not for a lack of trying. I actually wrote a lot, but this is a huge story compared to everything else. This will definitely be a stand alone book, which I will have to work on in chunks. In the mean time I have some ideas for smaller stories, so hopefully I will have another one out soon.
I have an appointment with my Psychiatrist on Monday, so I’m debating the idea of just dealing with the depression until Monday, or reach out sooner….
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I wish I had something helpful to say. But, as someone who suffers from anxiety, not having any on the trip is definitely A WIN.
HUGS, friend.
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Thanks Ali and thanks for the Klout point as well. I am sorry to hear you go through anxiety, thank you for sharing.
Cjf, I might recommend something other than Wellbutrin. It had the same affect on me…just sort of blah-no worse no better. Klonopin is great anti anxiety but there are other alternatives out there anti-d that might help. Lexapro for one…
Everyone’s different with this affliction. Gotta find one that works for you specifically….and trust God to do the rest. He did for me and now I’m actually med-free believe it or not!
God bless.
Thanks Dave.
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Hooray for no anxiety. That’s something for sure. I admire you for fighting to get out of that plateau. It’s hard to do, especially when you’re there. Good for you.
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Thank you!
Corey Feldman recently posted…Third update re: recent downturn with depression and anxiety