My self-fulfilling prophecy came true. Today was a good day. My depression is better than yesterday. I’m in a pretty good place. My anxiety was a little higher but I want to chalk that up to a little too much caffeine and a skipped run. Somehow I over slept then remembered I had a deadline coming up on a guest blog post, so I skipped the run and wrote. Hopefully it was a coherent piece; I wrote most of it on my first cup of coffee. I think my writing is better at lunch or in the evening. So not a morning person.
I had a good therapy session with my social worker. I let her guide the topics a little to much; there are other areas I want to focus on first. But she did give me some good ideas on some important issues I do want to tackle. They involve other people so I won’t share those details, but I think I made progress on the meds and the therapy today.
I’m pretty happy with my self image today. I looked in the mirror and really saw the impact of the running, even if it has slowed down this month. OK I’m not happy with my hair, its at a bit of an awkward stage. Its long enough to put it in about a 4 inch ponytail, but not quite long enough to pull the sides into it. I bring up the hair for a reason. I haven’t had really long hair since college. I was always changing my outward appearance, I guess my subconscious was calling for change, but I didn’t want to listen. I never had the patience to keep it in one style for too long. And I certainly have never had the patience to stay to long in an awkward place. At least not since college.
So there you have it. Self esteem up, mood up, anxiety a bit up, and not thrilled with a bad hair week. Over all a 7.5 on my 1-10 happiness scale.
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Therapy is a process and even when we go for one or two specific issues but uncover a whole lot of other stuff. I just know from experience from both sides of the proverbial “couch”. Sometimes it helps to jot one or two things down before you go especially if there is something pressing. Glad to hear you are feeling better. One last thing, again through my own experience, I have learned that caffeine amps up my anxiety to levels I cannot tolerate. I personally avoid it as much as I can. Hang in there, you are moving forward.
Thanks Tammy. I usually know my limits with caffeine but today crossed it. The notes is a good idea. Its funny I do that with the psychiatrists, but not the social worker.
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I’m glad to hear you had a good day yesterday! I’m wishing you another good day today! Remember to do something that makes you feel good or puts a smile on your face. I know it’s easier said than done sometimes but the effort is worth it, if it makes you feel good
Thank you!. So far so good!
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