My self-fulfilling prophecy came true. Today was a good day. My depression is better than yesterday. I’m in a pretty good place. My anxiety was a little higher but I want to chalk that up to a little too much caffeine and a skipped run. Somehow I over slept then remembered I had a deadline coming up on a guest blog post, so I skipped the run and wrote. Hopefully it was a coherent piece; I wrote most of it on my first cup of coffee. I think my writing is better at lunch or in the evening. So not a morning person.
I had a good therapy session with my social worker. I let her guide the topics a little to much; there are other areas I want to focus on first. But she did give me some good ideas on some important issues I do want to tackle. They involve other people so I won’t share those details, but I think I made progress on the meds and the therapy today.
I’m pretty happy with my self image today. I looked in the mirror and really saw the impact of the running, even if it has slowed down this month. OK I’m not happy with my hair, its at a bit of an awkward stage. Its long enough to put it in about a 4 inch ponytail, but not quite long enough to pull the sides into it. I bring up the hair for a reason. I haven’t had really long hair since college. I was always changing my outward appearance, I guess my subconscious was calling for change, but I didn’t want to listen. I never had the patience to keep it in one style for too long. And I certainly have never had the patience to stay to long in an awkward place. At least not since college.
So there you have it. Self esteem up, mood up, anxiety a bit up, and not thrilled with a bad hair week. Over all a 7.5 on my 1-10 happiness scale.
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