If you have been reading my posts you know my scale, but for those new to the site: 1 can’t get out of bed (which only happened once in my life for the record) to 10, my new definition of happiness. I am at a respectable 7.5.  Considering some work stress and the fact I already miss my family, I’m pretty happy with a 7.5. I said I miss my family, so let me explain. I don’t see them much during the week, and I travel more than infrequently for work, so I am used to playing the bachelor for a few days. But this is the first time my family has gone out of town and left me at home. So I am also a little jealous because they are going to the beach. My dream is to live, or at least have a second home at the beach.

Melissa is totally capable, so I have full trust in her ability to take the kids on a 3 hour drive to the beach for a couple of days. But I know Melissa is a little stressed about it, and on some level I am as well.  As much as I reject traditional patriarchal roles. There is a part of me that wants to be their to protect them from anything. I’d like to think its not actually patriarchy, that I would have those same feeling if our gender roles where reversed.

I am looking forward to Wednesday.  They won’t be back until sometime that day and I have the day off for some Medical appointments. So I get the opportunity to sleep in late! Plus they come back that day, so double bonus.

My anxiety levels are high today, but that is work related and I can’t go into it. I just took my klonopin, so hopefully that will help soon.  I suppose I need to come up with an anxiety scale. But in general I have been doing so well in that area, I haven’t needed one.

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