I finalized the contract with the very talented artist Rachel Fishman. She sent me 3 new proofs from the first story Egret at 5. They look awesome, there were just a few minor changes I requested. I’m hoping for a labor day release, but much will depend on the editing process. I know I have slowed down on the writing of the series. I just haven’t been in the warm fuzzy place. Which is silly because writing it puts me there. There is no rule that says everything I write has to be gold. Which is obvious, some of my Egret stories are better than others. I am really hoping the first book will be out by labor day, but much depends on the editing and layout process. When you self publish you have a lot more artistic control, but also a lot more work. I am sure I am being way to optimistic on the release date. I just don’t know what I don’t know about self publishing. The following may change but here is what I have planned for the first book:
This Post brought to you by Starbucks, OK not really in the sponsorship sense, just in the complimentary electricity and WiFi. So this isn’t a sponsored post, but feel fee to click on my affiliate link for Starbucks and buy some KCups or whatever. This is really a follow on to my earlier post. I’m still at about an 8, and considering my favorite part of my favorite holiday (the fireworks) is canceled for tomorrow, I call that a win.
OK what this post is really about is other people and their reactions my coming out of the closet in regards to my mental health (the anxiety and depression). Now I use the phrase coming out of the closet intentionally since it is a similar type bias, Anderson Copper is all over the news today and of course I take perverse pleasure in people Googling Corey Feldman out of the closet.
So on to the post. Most people have been amazing. So supportive. Then there have been the ones that have also been supportive and secretly contacted me to let me know they are going through the same thing. But there is also a different group of people that have shied away from me since putting all this out there. Now if you are reading this post and you know who you are, I bet you think this post is about you, don’t you, don’t you. Well no, it’s not, not in the least. These are more people I would categorize in the acquaintance or socially friendly category.
A small group of these people have stopped talking to me. Or if they do, its usually initiated by me and brief as can be. I can’t figure out if they think anxiety and depression are somehow communicable, or maybe they just don’t know what to say. But part of me thinks at least for some, it’s disapproval. Not so much for having it, though that may be the case, but for talking about it openly. Now that could just be the depression/anxiety lying. But for those who just don’t know what to say, remember I am the same person today that I was a few months ago. I just know myself a little better.
Update – electricity has been restored